Sometimes I feel like I am 100% bipolar with the Lord
Today is one of those days
It upsets me that I can't have my old life and be with the person I "want"
One day I will look back and realize how trivial and pointless these desires are...
How I was saved from a life of misery.
But right now...
Right now I want that old life back...
But it's not worth it.
Most of me knows that.
chin up you! you're not alone, we all have our "things" that get to us, and the cool thing is so did Paul-the-apostle-amazing-crazy-awesome-revolutionary-spiritual-leader-guy. Read Romans 7 and 8, along with some mind blowing run-on sentences, it has a lot of amazing stuff to hang on to. Seriously. Read it. Now. :) I love youuu!!!
ReplyDeletei know how you feel babe, don't be so hard on yourself! He's totally proud of you, His brave daughter
ReplyDeleteThank you both :) Alot of stuff ended up happening yesterday- but the more I surrender the more the Lord provides. its really crazy actually. I don't quite understand it
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